First Entry!
11/02/2025
--On the topic of creative writing.
So for a while I was wrestling with the idea of writing at Substack, but honestly I am turned off by the part that feels so much like fake networking. The notes on there might as well be tweets. I don't know, I've never enjoyed twitter. I used to like Insta, but it began to roll downhill as I realized it began to be a source of stress instead of being inspiring. It made me feel guilty for not being as productive as everyone else, not living life like everyone else, and I need to post things to prove ...well I don't actually know haha! I'll let you know I've been far more at peace since I deleted the app years ago. Admittedly I was lazy to close my account, but I finally did after running into old friends that asked 'what happened? I haven’t seen you post' or ‘Did you get my message on IG?’ How dare I not post, but it made me realize I should at least close it so people don't assume I'm ignoring them.
Anyway back to Substack.
I did post some short fiction over at Substack, but I haven't bothered going back after a few posts. I had to make sure my writing stays short and promote myself replying to random notes. 'Haha I'm new too!', 'Check out my first post!'. It feels so fake and it has the same follow for follow practice like other platforms. Yeah, thanks random, for pretending to read my blog that one time and I’ll pretend to read your blog. I mainly tried Substack since I'm struggling to find a job right now. Although it seems like the type of platform that will take a long time to actually make any money. I don't have any followers from any other places. I deleted my IG and an old wordpress blog from ages ago. I don't regret IG though. I'll at least make the effort for my short fiction idea. I do like that part and I can post it here if I can't bother with Substack.
However, I'm looking forward to focusing on drafting my novel during November. I finally found a decent strategy to write which has been my hurdle for ages. Not to mention losing my work MULTIPLE TIMES in the past. I was inspired by solo rpgs in my approach to drafting. When I saw that people kept light notes about their game play and when I tried it out it dawned on me 'this the method I need!' My thoughts go too fast so trying to write a novel feels akin to playing a MMO game with tons of lag. The NPCs and your party are leaving me behind because I was too busy trying to describe a scene. So if I use some shorthand and write without worrying so much about it sounding coherent at all to anyone else, I can get into the flow. ADHD is a weird hurdle in front of the most mundane things I swear. I'm doing this with a fountain pen and paper lol. My notes on world-building are digital as initially I thought I would be typing and these notes go back years. I was doing the solo RPG (Iron Valley) with pen and paper and I enjoyed it, so I thought it would suit my drafting.
I had started drafting in this manner earlier this year, July maybe, but I been pretty inconsistent. So I plan to really throw myself into it for November. I joined a challenge that Heart Breathing has since NaNoWriMo (National Novel writing month) disappeared for some reason. I don't know the tea behind that organization, but Heart has some inspiring videos so it makes it feel less alone in the effort. I do have sticky notes on a poster board for plotting, but I find in drafting, I made some turns I didn't foresee!
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